Every day is a new day. This simple truth and fact I’ve known my whole life.
But today, today it rings really, really true for me.
My husband had a cancerous tumor removed from his abdomen 2 years ago. It came out of nowhere and quite literally rocked our worlds. I remember driving him to the hospital that night and thinking, “I hope you don’t have Appendicitis.” Oh, GOD… if only it had been that. Over the last 2 years my husband has been on a GLEEVEC Chemo Pill that he has to take every evening before bed. It has its side effects – aches and pains, drowsiness, upset stomach – but he takes it on, all of it, without complaining at all. When we made the decision as a family for him to go on the drug, it took the chances of the tumor coming back from 25% to less than 10%. We like the less than 10% odds better. 🙂
Every 6 months since January of 2012, Matt has had to go for routine cat scans. They are the BIGGEST worrisome in the world for me. I can’t sleep the night before. I can’t eat the day of. I can’t think the day of. I’m just a mushy-mess until I hear from him.
This past November 21st, Matt went for his routine cat scan. There was a fuzzy spot on the scan in his gut, so they told Matt they wanted to monitor him and have him comeback in 3 months. His doctor at Dana Farber told Matt he wasn’t concerned about it and that he thought it was fatty scar tissue or something along the lines of that, but I was happy that they wanted to do a follow-up.
I’m not kidding when I say this statement, I have been a NERVOUS WRECK every single day since November 21st. March 4th has been a day I have been dreading. It has been the day that seemed to come too fast, too quick.
Today came.
And today was a good day. A really good day.
I got the text that I was praying to get.
I broke down.
Those words “all good” where the most precious and most cherished.
They were – literally – life lines for me.
As soon as I got the news, I felt like I could breath and that my 2014 could begin.
Living in fear is not something I want to do. It’s not the way I want to live. It’s just paralyzing.
I said today on Facebook that today is my New Year. Today is the day I can breath and start to really allow myself to celebrate 2014.
Thank you all for your love and support and prayers… they have been so appreciated!
I will always return the favor.
Fantastic news! I’m so glad he has the all clear again! Happy new year to you and your family! xo
Woo Hoo!! Happy New Year! May 2014 be filled with more good news.
I am so happy for you all. I have kept Matt’s health in my prayers. I couldn’t be happier that the news was so good. Happy New Year!! xo