Every day is a new day. This simple truth and fact I’ve known my whole life.

But today, today it rings really, really true for me.

My husband had a cancerous tumor removed from his abdomen 2 years ago. It came out of nowhere and quite literally rocked our worlds. I remember driving him to the hospital that night and thinking, “I hope you don’t have Appendicitis.” Oh, GOD… if only it had been that. Over the last 2 years my husband has been on a GLEEVEC Chemo Pill that he has to take every evening before bed. It has its side effects – aches and pains, drowsiness, upset stomach – but he takes it on, all of it, without complaining at all. When we made the decision as a family for him to go on the drug, it took the chances of the tumor coming back from 25% to less than 10%. We like the less than 10% odds better. 🙂

Every 6 months since January of 2012, Matt has had to go for routine cat scans. They are the BIGGEST worrisome in the world for me. I can’t sleep the night before. I can’t eat the day of. I can’t think the day of. I’m just a mushy-mess until I hear from him.

This past November 21st, Matt went for his routine cat scan. There was a fuzzy spot on the scan in his gut, so they told Matt they wanted to monitor him and have him comeback in 3 months. His doctor at Dana Farber told Matt he wasn’t concerned about it and that he thought it was fatty scar tissue or something along the lines of that, but I was happy that they wanted to do a follow-up.

I’m not kidding when I say this statement, I have been a NERVOUS WRECK every single day since November 21st. March 4th has been a day I have been dreading. It has been the day that seemed to come too fast, too quick.

Today came.

And today was a good day. A really good day.

I got the text that I was praying to get.

I broke down.

Those words “all good” where the most precious and most cherished.

They were – literally – life lines for me.

As soon as I got the news, I felt like I could breath and that my 2014 could begin.

Living in fear is not something I want to do. It’s not the way I want to live. It’s just paralyzing.

I said today on Facebook that today is my New Year. Today is the day I can breath and start to really allow myself to celebrate 2014.

Thank you all for your love and support and prayers… they have been so appreciated!

I will always return the favor.